Wednesday, 10 May 2017

Set Free!

I would say for the last year I have been struggling with stuff I should not be struggling with.  My previous posts hint at that.  Rejection, resentment, anger, self-loathing, persecution complex, insecurity, mama guilt, etc etc etc!

And I have been delving into the Word, trying to absorb it into my very being, in the hope that it would change me from inside.  And truth be told, it has and does do that!  But, I think sometimes we hang onto all that baggage a little too tightly, and before we can walk forward, we are mired again, in the sticky mud of human emotions and oppression.

But... God....!

So, I'm sitting in the lounge feeling sorry for myself and decided to watch an episode of Robert Morris' ministry.  This particular section/session is called Set Free, and it was the last session of a series of which I had seen none.  Man, was I blown away.  He starts by saying he is going to pray for us all at the end of that session, for the release from all those things listed above and a host of others.

I'm thinking, okay, lets hear this out.  All I can tell you is that what he said, how he said it, and the prayer at the end, has changed me!  At the end, I stood alone in my lounge, hands in the air and prayed with him.  I prayed for the Lord to release me from all those things as he mentioned them... And can I just say, I felt, for the first time in a lonnnnng time, that I could breathe!  Really inhale and exhale and breathe freely.  Now I don't mean due to physical lung issues.  I mean spiritually, in my soul, heart released, joyful breathing!


That was a few weeks ago, and still I feel released of those things.  I make decisions because I have the confidence to stand for what I decide.  Stupid example, my hair was driving me mad!  But having cut it a year ago, and regretting it, I decided to grow it again, and stick it out, and go through that everyday hating-what-you-look-like-while-it-grows stage!  Once released... set free, I looked in the mirror and thought, "I want it short, I like it short, and that is what I am going to do"!  I literally climbed in my car, drove to the hairdresser and told her to lop it off!  And I AM LOVING IT!

Another example!  Because of things that have happened in this family, as a Mom I have been consumed by much guilt.  Guilt for things I had no control over!  How does it manifest?  In every decision that needs to be made with regards to my children.  And Praise the Lord, with prayer, encouragement from great friends, my decisions are beginning to be made from a guilt-free place and thus I am not easily manipulated into doing what is wanted, but make my decisions based on what is fair and right (in general, no one's perfect right?!).

Eph 4 vs 31-32:  Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamour [perpetual animosity, resentment, strife, fault-finding] and slander be put away from you, along with every kind of malice [all spitefulness, verbal abuse, malevolence]. (32) Be kind and helpful to one another, tender-hearted [compassionate, understanding], forgiving one another [readily and freely], just as God in Christ also forgave you.

One thing Robert Morris says in this talk is that these things periodically attach themselves to us over time and we have to keep being aware of them and remembering all we are in Christ and to believe the truth of the word and not the lies of the devil.  Evaluate your heart!  Evaluate your feelings and if you find, when comparing what you feel with God's truth, you find they are lies, let them go, trust God to release you from those things and renew your minds daily with the truth.  I know that I spent A LOT of time in my head, repeating the lies until I believed them.  We have to capture those thoughts and replace them with God's truth.

God bless lovely ladies.... be encouraged, God will never leave you nor forsake you! His word says so, therefore it is so!

God bless
Tracy

Here is a link to the session I watched!  The Blessed Life - Set Free - Robert Morris I believe it will bless you big!

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