Monday, 24 April 2017

Rejecting Rejection!

Rejection has never really been my thing.  I do not go out of my way to reject anyone, nor has the rejection of others bothered me much..... until lately....

I think because it seems to be becoming a theme in my life for the last 10 years and one rejection on top of another, however small and insignificant, after a big hurt kinda burns doesn't it?!

The dent in my armour is not rejection!  It is not what messes with my head and I will not accept it either.  One dent in ye olde armour is more than enough to battle with year in and year out.  I so don't need another.  So right here, and right now, I declare "I reject rejection"!

Whether someone rejects me on purpose or not, I will not make it my issue.  I am good enough and acceptable to the Lord as I stand, faults and all and although there is much growth and change that needs to take place, its not going to come from a place of rejection.

Now, having said that, maybe the Lord is trying to teach me something.  What though?  Is it that He wants me to feel secure standing alone?  Does He want me to feel contentment in the face of not being wanted (as apposed to being needed and used)?  Or is it simply just a little rejection along the way to inoculate me against a larger rejection to come?  Oi vey!  Whatever it is I lay it at His feet and I give it to You Jesus.  I do not accept this rejection!  And in the words of Joseph, prince of Dreams, the animated classic, "I don't need to know everything, just know that You know more than me and that is okay."


I'm still digging myself out of the rejection funk, but I know when its dealt with, I will be stronger for it and I will be content if someone, with whom I want to have closeness, does not want the same thing with me and I will use that opportunity to bless them, release them, and cultivate stronger relationships with those who do choose to spend time with me.

Psalm 34 v 18:  The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

John 1 v 11:  He came to his own, and his own people did not receive him.
Jesus suffered much rejection - He surely and absolutely understands how we feel!

Romans 8 v 31: What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?Yes, what others think of us is not nearly as important as what God thinks of us.

I read something the other day that says what others think of us is none of our business 😆!  Lol, so true!  Let us rather focus on what God thinks of us, and that is that He loved us so much He sent His only Son to die on a cross for us!  So much love you cannot smother with any amount of rejection and hurt.

God bless
Tracy

Thursday, 20 April 2017

Do Not Be Afraid!

Things have gotten a little tough around here.  There is a terrible drought, the worst for us in over 100 years apparently, and because of that, very strict water restrictions are in place.  Well, for us in the pool industry, thats a real business buster.  When people are not allowed encouraged to not install or fill pools, its a real downer financially.

Many people in industries for whom water is part of their business, car washes, doggie parlours, garden services, roof cleaners, window cleaners, and many more are finding the current lack of water a trying time.

Then there is our government!  Well, as I am not a politician, let me say very little on the issue except, we need God to intervene desperately!   We have plenty people of all walks of life, gathering regularly to peacefully show their unhappiness at all that is going on, and it is quite confusing as a Christian to know what is the right thing to do, what to participate in!  One thing I know for sure, prayer is ALWAYS the best option.  So, on the 22 April, we have had a call as a nation, to gather a million or more people in one place, a farm outside of Bloemfontein, to come together, to repent as a nation, to fall on our knees in our need of our God and King!  To pray for rain, both spiritually and in the natural, and for God to work change in our government!  We as Christians are so excited about this event.  As a family we won't be going, due to logistics etc but that does not stop us from praying with them, in our homes, in our cars, at the grocer, anywhere, anytime!

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The theme in all this for us as a country is "Its time!"  Time to come together and stand together as a nation before the Lord...  I am so excited about what the Lord is going to do for us and in us as a nation.... Watch this space people!  Watch this space! 💚

With all these things mulling around in my head, the worry of tomorrow (hmmm, not supposed to do that right?) I read the following encouragement on my instagram account from Esther Ministries :
To those who find themselves in the furnace today, not knowing if they can stand the heat much longer, remember that you are not alone in the fire! Do not be afraid! Take heart! You will not be harmed! You will come out of the furnace not even smelling of smoke.

"So Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego came out of the fire, and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them. Then Nebuchadnezzar said, “Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants!" (Daniel 3:26-27)

Take courage! Even if the furnace is turned up 7 times, still you will be untouched by the fire. You have heavenly protection and angels surrounding you. You might not see it while you're in it, but as you come out, you and those around you will stand astonished at how you walked through fire and have not been burned. 

My encouragement to you in whatever it is that you face, you are not alone in that furnace!  God is with you and you will come through this without even the stench of smoke on you!

God bless
Tracy

Monday, 17 April 2017

The Treadmill in my Head...

I have been spending a lot of time lately, feeling rejected!  Now, I am not a person for whom rejection was ever a big thing.  You either liked me or you didn't and either way was okay for me.  But lately I feel too weak to fight off rejection with the confidence I always had in the past.  And this hurt hits hard from both close to home, and not so close.

What to do about it?  I'm not sure!  I get all hurt and react internally, and then spout out my hurt (at home on the head of my poor husband)... Then I self-protect and claim I don't care!  Then I mellow and soften towards those who have hurt me, and so the cycle continues.

But the thing is, its exhausting!  Its stressful!  Its debilitating!  And I don't like feeling like this.  As I was pondering all this I reckoned that I must be suffering, or starting to suffer from some kind of depression.  That place you get to when you feel there is no hope.  (Now please bare in mind I am not commenting on depression in general, or sufferers of depression.  I am just referring to how I feel in this moment).  For me the first place I want to go to when I feel this way is Psalms.  It soothes my soul.  I feel I can relate because David ranted and raved, but always worshipped and praised too.  He was real in the moment and God loved him through it all.


Secondly, sitting and mulling things over, I considered something.  I do not need to change how I feel in this moment.  I do not need to find a solution to my "problem"!  I need only seek the Lord.  I need only dig deep and dig often into His word and He will start changing me from the inside out.  Soon, I will wake up and feel.... nothing of what I am feeling now.  Hope will start to ooze into my pores!  Joy will start to filter through my veins... and I will wake up and notice, something is different.  I know this to be true, because it happens when I turn to God first and foremost, and when I seek Him above all else...

Matt 6 v 33:  But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

We hear and quote this scripture all the time.  But it is so profound in its truth and in its reality when we practice it that you JUST CANNOT ignore the power of God's words....

So, my encouragement to you is to seek God no matter how dark you feel right now.  It is in the seeking of Him, that He works in your circumstances, in your heart, in your soul and heals you where you need healing, and restores you where you need restoration.  Apart from these things, it is the new energy that comes from letting go and letting God that is freeing too.

Without God I would be nothing, I would be lost!

God bless
Tracy

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