Monday, 23 January 2017

How is your Heart?

In the past few weeks as I have been around other people and family I haven't seen in a while, I have had this feeling of being left behind spiritually... and it has made me hungry for the Word.  It has made me aware, this feeling of being left behind, that I need to knuckle down and start clinging to the Word again.

If I had to sum up where I am at the moment, I feel my heart condition is currently the result of 9 years of intense emotional upheaval brought about by a family saga/drama that resulted in much hurt and pain, and still, separation with some family members....

Follow this up with +/- 3 years of a scary emotional journey as a parent, which has recently ended in victory in Christ and has brought me to my knees with much tears, joy and relief.  I am so humbled by God's mercy and grace...

Follow this up with a heart hardening thought life, and what do you get?  One heart in need of God's tender mercy and grace.  

I am determined to start doing the right things to correct this.  One, we are trying to get into the very healthy habit of GOOD church attendance!!!!  Secondly, my quiet times need more depth and consistency.  Thirdly, I have got to daily, hourly, by the minute if necessary, renew my mind!

This morning I read Psalms 125:

(1) Those who trust in and rely on the Lord [with confident expectation]
Are like Mount Zion, which cannot be moved but remains forever.
(2) As the mountains surround Jerusalem, So the Lord surrounds His people
From this time forth and forever.
(3) For the sceptre of wickedness shall not rest on the land of the righteous,
So that the righteous will not reach out their hands to do wrong.
(4) Do good, O Lord, to those who are good
And to those who are upright in their hearts.

(5) But as for those who turn aside to their crooked ways [in unresponsiveness to God],
The Lord will lead them away with those who do evil.
Peace be upon Israel.


The first thing to catch my eye is that I need to trust in and rely on the Lord because to do so, I would be like Mount Zion, unmovable.  Right now, I believe I love the Lord, and would never leave Him, but my heart feels cut off from those around me.  No, I want my heart to be soft and pliable so that my love for my nearest and dearest shines through, and doesn't seem unavailable to them.



The second thing to catch my eye is verse 4:  Do good, O Lord, to those who are good
And to those who are upright in their hearts.

I want the Lord to do good to me, but how can He if my heart is hard and not upright?!  That caught me right between the eyes!  I need to work on my heart condition.  

Sin separates us from God, but I believe too that a hard heart deafens our spirit and mind to God and if He should speak to us, would we hear Him?  I would like to think that I would do everything I could to make sure I can hear Him!  So, that means I need to work on softening my heart, let God renew in me a new heart, with a new attitude, and a right way (God's way) of thinking!

Psalm 51 v 10:  Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a right and steadfast spirit within me.

Matt 6 v 21:  For where your treasure is, there your heart [your wishes, your desires; that on which your life centers] will be also.

I want my heart to be filled with Godly treasure and the only way to do that, is to focus on God, put Him and His word first in my life, start my day and end my day with Him.  

What is the condition of your heart?

God bless
Tracy

2 comments:

  1. The parent challenge, the relationship challenges - I'm right there with you - right along with the need for more self-discipline in prayer time and study to live these challenges - and their effects with God's shalom - and to live that I need that prayer life - just like you. Praying that in 2017 we both manage to be, not just more disciplined with time and study, but more time inviting him in to our time and letting him infuse our hearts, thereby infusing our daily and the relationships in that daily! {{{HUGS}}} ~ Maryleigh

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    1. Hi Maryleigh, firstly thanks for the cyberhugs :) One always needs those. Yes, those parenting and relational challenges are just that, challenging! Thank you for your encouragement and prayers. Very much appreciated and I look forward one day, to a cuppa with you!
      God bless

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