Tuesday, 1 March 2016
V - Vindication
Ohhhh man how I want vindication!!!!!
I am impatient for it and need and long for it desperately....
The hardest part is the waiting right?! And the constant striving to make forgiveness a genuine part of your heart for those who do not acknowledge or recognise the hurt they have wilfully imparted into your life! My life was just FINE without all that unwanted hurt thank you very much!
Seriously though, I do believe that vindication will come.... IN GOD'S TIME! When all the heart change in me is at that right place. Where when vindication comes, I can be gracious, I can be merciful, I can extend the love of Jesus....
So what am I saying here? I'm not ready to do all that? Sigh.... Back to the drawing board, back to the word!
What DOES God's word say about vindication anyway?
Psalm 17 vs 1-3: (1) Hear the just (righteous) cause, O Lord; listen to my loud [piercing] cry; Listen to my prayer, that comes from guileless lips. (2) Let my verdict of vindication come from Your presence; May Your eyes look with equity and behold things that are just. (3) You have tried my heart; You have visited me in the night; You have tested me and You find nothing [evil in me];
I intend that my mouth will not transgress.
Yes, I want my vindication to come from the Lord's presence. But follow onto verse 3: You have tried my heart! Well, if I try to analyse my heart, it is no wonder God's vindication has not yet come! There is still much forgiveness to be acted upon. There is still much "letting go" to be done!
Psalm 26 vs 1-2: (1) Vindicate me, O Lord, for I have walked in my integrity; I have [relied on and] trusted [confidently] in the Lord without wavering and I shall not slip. (2) Examine me, O Lord, and try me; Test my heart and my mind.
Do you see that? Again the Lord promises vindication, but.... upon examination of my heart, and my heart being free of evil, free of bitterness, full of forgiveness. It is like all the promises of God in the Word, they are conditional on where we are in the equation.
I truly believe that vindication will come and it will come at the hand of the Lord and not by any machinerisms on my part. The harder I try to resolve these hurts, within myself and in relationships, the worse it gets! It is only by God's hand, by His grace, and in His power. And, when God vindicates, He also brings restoration and renewal.
Yes, I desperately want my vindication, but I know that there is still work to be done in my heart (and maybe in their hearts too right?!). This raises the question, "what if you never get vindication?" I answer this with God's Word: Psalm 27 v 13: What, what would have become of me had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living!
Yes, by the hand of the Lord, I WILL see the Lord's goodness while I am yet here! God's word is true and tested and I encourage you to KNOW in your heart, vindication IS yours. In His time, as only He knows the true condition of your heart.