That does not necessarily mean I go back to sleep.... I do, eventually..... but, asleep or not I am back in bed!
Not last night! My daughter got home and set the alarm off accidently! So of course I woke up and was vertical in a flash, with the alarm off and down the passage to investigate. All was well, checked the doors, the alarm, the lights, and back to bed! BUT I JUST COULD NOT GO BACK TO SLEEP! I had so many angry thoughts, unrelated to being woken up, going through my head. And I was not groggily awake! I was WIDE awake!
So I decided to break the tradition of staying horizontal until I eventually fall asleep! I got up at 3am, made a cup of tea (with sugar, and an extra half a spoon at that), got a blanket, my bible and some hightlighters and began to read!
I did this for an hour.
I can't say that any major issues were resolved in the wee hours of this morning. I can't even say I had any epiphanies! Only that my anger disolved, my tea tasted calming (if that's possible), and the words I read touched home. I started out furiously writing in my journal, followed by writing the verses that got to me and finished off by highlighting a couple of chapters of my bible so that right now, it could probably glow in the dark.
I'm not really sure what the point is of my woeful story of being up and wide awake so early other than to say it felt good to use this time productively in the Lord's word. It felt good not to lie awake mentally grumbling and playing those useless mind games that truly gets one no where!
I felt victorious (in that "I can barely keep my eyes open" kind of way) in those early hours because I turned to the Lord instead of silently accepting all the condemnation I could heap on myself mentally for all I could have done differently the day before.
So, my encouragement to you today is if you are being kept awake, by worry, anger, frustration, loud or scary noises, use that time for good! Go make a cup of tea/coffee and read the Word! That is it! Reading God's word is NEVER a waste of time and He says His word NEVER returns back void! (Isaiah 55 v 11).
This verse is one of those that struck me in my early morning sojourn into the Word:
Isaiah 57 v 19: Peace, peace, to him who is far off [both Jew and Gentile] and to him who is near! says the Lord; I create the fruit of his lips, and I will heal him [make his lips blossom anew with speech in thankful praise].
Two things hit me while reading this, firstly, God wants peace for us, no matter how near or far we are from Him. Secondly, He will heal us as we praise and thank Him. I'm not sure if I am reading that right but it sounds awesome to me. It hit me then that no matter how I feel, no matter what has gone wrong in the day, I need to praise Him and be thankful.
So, as I write this post, (in the NORMAL morning hours) I am thankful for God's word, for His mercies new every morning, for tea, (seriously), for a new perspective even if I don't have any new answers, for the lovely sun, for my bed, for my family....
And so the list will go on during the course of today....
God bless you my friends
I hope you are encouraged
With each post I do this year I am going to end off with #wisdom. This will be where I try to understand the wisdom of what the Lord is teaching here.
#wisdom What is the Lord teaching me here about wisdom?
The wisdom I find here today is that it is never a waste of time, tea, or tears to go read God's word, any time of night or day. His word heals, restores, refreshes and renews.