I have been very angry at someone for a while now. For a long time I kept trying to get this person and another to keep the lines of communication open. And, well, slowly but surely their relationship is healing. But the last time I spoke with this person we had words and I was so angry because after all my attempts to open her eyes to the truth, she still didn't get it!
Did you see what I said there? After all MY attempts to OPEN her eyes! Yes well, is it any wonder the Lord has encouraged me to keep my distance and leave the opening of eyes to HIM.
Now this person is seeking to amend relationships on her own steam. And I'm mad about that! Pride I think. I'm trying to figure out if its pride because I wanted recognition for trying to keep lines of communication open in the first place or is it pride because well, God doesn't need me to fix things up! Sigh!
I am coming to the conclusion that firstly: I need to come before the Lord and ask His forgiveness for my prideful attitude, and secondly: thank Him that the healing continues. Thirdly: I need to forgive this person, and offer the same grace and mercy that I long for from the Lord. Its humbling right?! On top of that I want to want to start a new relationship with her. But right now, I don't want to. What I do believe is that these feelings will change. As forgiveness for her permeates my heart, I will start to see her differently and want to seek her out.
Until then, I will focus on the Lord and His word.
Matt 6 v 33: Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.
My encouragement to you is that if you are dealing with hurt relationships, seek the Lord's will in it and focus on Him and He will do with the relationship what He wants, and it will be for your good.