Monday 20 January 2014

Hard Heart Much?

I have been very angry at someone for a while now.  For a long time I kept trying to get this person and another to keep the lines of communication open.  And, well, slowly but surely their relationship is healing.  But the last time I spoke with this person we had words and I was so angry because after all my attempts to open her eyes to the truth, she still didn't get it!

Did you see what I said there?  After all MY attempts to OPEN her eyes!  Yes well, is it any wonder the Lord has encouraged me to keep my distance and leave the opening of eyes to HIM.

Now this person is seeking to amend relationships on her own steam.  And I'm mad about that!  Pride I think.  I'm trying to figure out if its pride because I wanted recognition for trying to keep lines of communication open in the first place or is it pride because well, God doesn't need me to fix things up!  Sigh!


I am coming to the conclusion that firstly: I need to come before the Lord and ask His forgiveness for my prideful attitude, and secondly: thank Him that the healing continues.  Thirdly:  I need to forgive this person, and offer the same grace and mercy that I long for from the Lord.  Its humbling right?!  On top of that I want to want to start a new relationship with her.  But right now, I don't want to.  What I do believe is that these feelings will change.  As forgiveness for her permeates my heart, I will start to see her differently and want to seek her out.

Until then, I will focus on the Lord and His word.

Matt 6 v 33:  Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.

My encouragement to you is that if you are dealing with hurt relationships, seek the Lord's will in it and focus on Him and He will do with the relationship what He wants, and it will be for your good.

God bless
Tracy

23 comments:

  1. Dear Tracey
    Is that photo on the top of Table Mountain? I remember those cuties when we were last there. As I was reading your post and I thought of that verse where God tells us that unless The Lord builds the house, those who build, build in vain! But not to worry, we all try to build ourselves from time to time. If we don't make mistakes, dear friend, we will never learn. I hope to visit Cape Town this year.
    Blessings XX
    Mia

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    1. Hi Mia, yes it is Table Mountain. Love those Dassies, they're so cute. When you do come this way PLEASE let me know. We should be heading your way soon too, hopefully, God willing :)
      God bless
      Tracy

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  2. Oh, so sorry for your pain Tracy. One of the most painful emotional experiences is that of a broken relationship. But I think the very reason pain has been allowed into our lives is so that we can be more effective in our ministry to others. Blessings my friend as you take comfort in the fact that God has your situation as well as you in the palm of His hands. :)

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    1. Hi Denise, that is such a great point. And I think its one of the reasons God keeps me aware of my heart condition so I don't lose that blessing of being able to speak into someone else's life who is going through a similar thing. God bless
      Tracy

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  3. Oh, well said, Tracy. I can understand your feelings. I would encourage you to do what *mending* you can do with this person. You just never know what could happen. My father just died last week, and I was so grateful that we had some sweet moments to heal some of the painful last few month.

    Philippians 2:13, NLT:

    "For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him."

    God will make you *want to* - and then He'll give you the power to follow through.

    Praying for you.

    GOD BLESS!

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    1. Hi Sharon, I am so sorry for your loss, but grateful for you that you had that time with your father. My dad passed away 2 years ago and I didn't get to his bedside in time. But, I know I tried over the years to show Him Christ. Probably not well enough but I wont let the devil cause condemnation in my heart. Praying for you and your family in this sad time
      God bless

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  4. It is so hard to give up the reins and "let" God handle things. But, He knows better than we do when the right time to open eyes will be. You are so right to focus on Him and His word! He will heal your heart and guide you in the right direction.

    Blessings, Joan

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    1. Hi Joan, Amen, He knows best. Hard to not try "fix" things but I have seen how my attempts have kind of sent things backwards or sidewards. Will wait on the Lord rather :)
      God bless

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  5. Ohhhhh my friend, It seems you and I are on the same path again. Thank you for sharing and ministering to my heart this morning!! You encourage me and bless me big!!!!
    Great post!!!
    Xoxoxox
    Stacey

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    1. Hi Stacey, you have no idea how much you do the same for me.
      God bless my friend
      Tracy

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  6. Tracy, your story sounds so familiar. I too have 'given' my pain to God - as though He needs MY permission to 'take over' ;-) . I should have let Him do the work right from word go in 1988. I sure as didn't get anywhere all those years. Now, finally I got wise. It is too big for me but not for Him. Wisdom DOES come with the years....... finally!

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    1. Hi Anita, thankfully we do grow when we keep close to God and His word. Thank you for this encouragement
      God bless

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  7. I have been where you are now...on more than one occasion...sigh! All I can tell you is that the Lord is faithful he will change your heart in his time. Your advice is good, focus on Him and His truth and let Him do the changing

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    1. Hi Maryann, thank you for the advice and yes, He is faithful even when we repeat the same mistakes. Thank you for the encouragement :)
      God bless
      Tracy

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  8. It is a painful process. But God wants walk hand in hand with you in this process. Follow Him. it's so hard. I know it and struggle with it every week.

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    1. Hi Jedidja, absolutely! There is no other way to do this but hand in hand with the Lord. Lesson learnt! I think! I hope :)
      God bless
      Tracy

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  9. Good to know that God is always there to lead us to the right path:)
    Have a nice day in the presence of the Lord:)

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    1. HI Joy, thank you, and you too :)
      God bless

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  10. Oh yes, I understand, because I am a fixer too. How dare them try to fix things on their own instead of heeding your assistance. ♥ I am so glad you are leaning on Jesus the great fixer upper. Thanks for sharing with us here at "Tell Me a Story."

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  11. I have been amazed by God's ability to transform my heart in regards to a particular relationship. I never wanted to talk with her again, but slowly, God taught me how to see her as He does.

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  12. It's difficult to sit back and trust- I just want to see everybody get along too. Especially in my own home with my children. But God must work on their hearts, and how much more exciting to see the Spirit genuinely at work rather than me coercing the circumstance! ;) Blessings from Madagascar
    Grace For That

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  13. Oh my... yes, seek His will. He is speaking to me on restoration, I'm just having a hard time getting to that place of being ready to restore.
    Good post friend.
    Blessings,
    Beth

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  14. You certainly learned a lot through this exercise. Blessings to you as you listen to Him and follow Jesus.
    Janis www.janiscox.com

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