My faith does build, but also there is another thing that happens! You realize how involved God is in your life. You realize He has not abandoned you. I would think about a situation and see how the Lord sent a great friend to encourage me, or a stranger to remind me of God's love for me, or an obstacle would be moved out of the way that I could not in my wildest dreams imagine resolving!
Now, as I sit here, thinking of all the Lord has done, and feeling humbled and grateful, I also acknowledge a certain level of bitterness. I certain level of heart-hardness. And, you know what? God is not going to sit idly by while I water those seeds.
Heb 3 v 8: Harden not your hearts, as in the provocation, in the day of temptation in the wilderness.
Eph 4 v 31: Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice.
On a completely human level that bitterness and hurt and hard-heartedness is completely reasonable. Completely understandable. But in God's economy, that is not good enough. Nope! He wants me to let go of these horrible emotions before they become leafy green healthy water-sucking plants in my heart. He wants me to cut them down now, at the root! Remove them with vigour and determination, and replace them with the beauty and strength of God's foliage! Fill those holes with His love and His desires! And to water them with love, hope, faith.... and watch with anticipation as God grows awesome fruit in my life.
Eph 4 v 32: And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.
So, I encourage you if you are feeling similar feelings, despite knowing God has made changes in your life, despite knowing that God has worked miracles in your life, you still feel those niggly emotions that are not of God, I encourage you to take a step of faith with me as we let them go and place them before the Lord to deal with and replace those things with the things of the Lord.
Linking with these lovely ladies this week: