Monday, 24 April 2017

Rejecting Rejection!

Rejection has never really been my thing.  I do not go out of my way to reject anyone, nor has the rejection of others bothered me much..... until lately....

I think because it seems to be becoming a theme in my life for the last 10 years and one rejection on top of another, however small and insignificant, after a big hurt kinda burns doesn't it?!

The dent in my armour is not rejection!  It is not what messes with my head and I will not accept it either.  One dent in ye olde armour is more than enough to battle with year in and year out.  I so don't need another.  So right here, and right now, I declare "I reject rejection"!

Whether someone rejects me on purpose or not, I will not make it my issue.  I am good enough and acceptable to the Lord as I stand, faults and all and although there is much growth and change that needs to take place, its not going to come from a place of rejection.

Now, having said that, maybe the Lord is trying to teach me something.  What though?  Is it that He wants me to feel secure standing alone?  Does He want me to feel contentment in the face of not being wanted (as apposed to being needed and used)?  Or is it simply just a little rejection along the way to inoculate me against a larger rejection to come?  Oi vey!  Whatever it is I lay it at His feet and I give it to You Jesus.  I do not accept this rejection!  And in the words of Joseph, prince of Dreams, the animated classic, "I don't need to know everything, just know that You know more than me and that is okay."


I'm still digging myself out of the rejection funk, but I know when its dealt with, I will be stronger for it and I will be content if someone, with whom I want to have closeness, does not want the same thing with me and I will use that opportunity to bless them, release them, and cultivate stronger relationships with those who do choose to spend time with me.

Psalm 34 v 18:  The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

John 1 v 11:  He came to his own, and his own people did not receive him.
Jesus suffered much rejection - He surely and absolutely understands how we feel!

Romans 8 v 31: What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?Yes, what others think of us is not nearly as important as what God thinks of us.

I read something the other day that says what others think of us is none of our business 😆!  Lol, so true!  Let us rather focus on what God thinks of us, and that is that He loved us so much He sent His only Son to die on a cross for us!  So much love you cannot smother with any amount of rejection and hurt.

God bless
Tracy

Thursday, 20 April 2017

Do Not Be Afraid!

Things have gotten a little tough around here.  There is a terrible drought, the worst for us in over 100 years apparently, and because of that, very strict water restrictions are in place.  Well, for us in the pool industry, thats a real business buster.  When people are not allowed encouraged to not install or fill pools, its a real downer financially.

Many people in industries for whom water is part of their business, car washes, doggie parlours, garden services, roof cleaners, window cleaners, and many more are finding the current lack of water a trying time.

Then there is our government!  Well, as I am not a politician, let me say very little on the issue except, we need God to intervene desperately!   We have plenty people of all walks of life, gathering regularly to peacefully show their unhappiness at all that is going on, and it is quite confusing as a Christian to know what is the right thing to do, what to participate in!  One thing I know for sure, prayer is ALWAYS the best option.  So, on the 22 April, we have had a call as a nation, to gather a million or more people in one place, a farm outside of Bloemfontein, to come together, to repent as a nation, to fall on our knees in our need of our God and King!  To pray for rain, both spiritually and in the natural, and for God to work change in our government!  We as Christians are so excited about this event.  As a family we won't be going, due to logistics etc but that does not stop us from praying with them, in our homes, in our cars, at the grocer, anywhere, anytime!

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The theme in all this for us as a country is "Its time!"  Time to come together and stand together as a nation before the Lord...  I am so excited about what the Lord is going to do for us and in us as a nation.... Watch this space people!  Watch this space! 💚

With all these things mulling around in my head, the worry of tomorrow (hmmm, not supposed to do that right?) I read the following encouragement on my instagram account from Esther Ministries :
To those who find themselves in the furnace today, not knowing if they can stand the heat much longer, remember that you are not alone in the fire! Do not be afraid! Take heart! You will not be harmed! You will come out of the furnace not even smelling of smoke.

"So Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego came out of the fire, and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them. Then Nebuchadnezzar said, “Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants!" (Daniel 3:26-27)

Take courage! Even if the furnace is turned up 7 times, still you will be untouched by the fire. You have heavenly protection and angels surrounding you. You might not see it while you're in it, but as you come out, you and those around you will stand astonished at how you walked through fire and have not been burned. 

My encouragement to you in whatever it is that you face, you are not alone in that furnace!  God is with you and you will come through this without even the stench of smoke on you!

God bless
Tracy

Monday, 17 April 2017

The Treadmill in my Head...

I have been spending a lot of time lately, feeling rejected!  Now, I am not a person for whom rejection was ever a big thing.  You either liked me or you didn't and either way was okay for me.  But lately I feel too weak to fight off rejection with the confidence I always had in the past.  And this hurt hits hard from both close to home, and not so close.

What to do about it?  I'm not sure!  I get all hurt and react internally, and then spout out my hurt (at home on the head of my poor husband)... Then I self-protect and claim I don't care!  Then I mellow and soften towards those who have hurt me, and so the cycle continues.

But the thing is, its exhausting!  Its stressful!  Its debilitating!  And I don't like feeling like this.  As I was pondering all this I reckoned that I must be suffering, or starting to suffer from some kind of depression.  That place you get to when you feel there is no hope.  (Now please bare in mind I am not commenting on depression in general, or sufferers of depression.  I am just referring to how I feel in this moment).  For me the first place I want to go to when I feel this way is Psalms.  It soothes my soul.  I feel I can relate because David ranted and raved, but always worshipped and praised too.  He was real in the moment and God loved him through it all.


Secondly, sitting and mulling things over, I considered something.  I do not need to change how I feel in this moment.  I do not need to find a solution to my "problem"!  I need only seek the Lord.  I need only dig deep and dig often into His word and He will start changing me from the inside out.  Soon, I will wake up and feel.... nothing of what I am feeling now.  Hope will start to ooze into my pores!  Joy will start to filter through my veins... and I will wake up and notice, something is different.  I know this to be true, because it happens when I turn to God first and foremost, and when I seek Him above all else...

Matt 6 v 33:  But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

We hear and quote this scripture all the time.  But it is so profound in its truth and in its reality when we practice it that you JUST CANNOT ignore the power of God's words....

So, my encouragement to you is to seek God no matter how dark you feel right now.  It is in the seeking of Him, that He works in your circumstances, in your heart, in your soul and heals you where you need healing, and restores you where you need restoration.  Apart from these things, it is the new energy that comes from letting go and letting God that is freeing too.

Without God I would be nothing, I would be lost!

God bless
Tracy

Tuesday, 14 March 2017

Digging Deeper 2017

I find that I have become very unimpressed, or disappointed with my own level of understanding of the Word and with my inability to "feel" closer to the Lord.  Now firstly, I think the word 'feel' is problematic because living one's faith out is not about feelings (thank goodness for me!  Mine are usually all over the place).  Secondly, unless you are willing to pay bucket loads of money, bible schools are not an option.  Truly, I would like to do something that is on line, that I can delve into in my own time etc.

My own church does much for the new Christian, and that is good but I want more meat!  I want more!  More of God, more understanding and wisdom, from God.  My daughters heard me talking about this and gave me an awesome book for my birthday.  Its called "Unlocking the Bible" and I believe the author has many youtube videos out there also, which I want to look into.  His name is David Pawson and he breaks down the books of the bible and fills them out with their history, their authorship, to whom its meant etc, but more so than each book's intro in your bible.  He expounds more on what the different scholars have to say about the book and its meaning etc.  So far, I am enjoying it.


Other books I am adding to my usual daily devotional are those written by AW Tozer.  "The Pursuit of God" is amazing.  It makes me realise how much more serious I need to be about seeking out the Lord.  It makes me realise how much of God's power I have access to, and I don't even know it.  He shows how shallow we are as Christians.   He is especially concerned for us as church-goers, because church sometimes has become about entertaining us, and focusing on feeding us only the easy to accept stuff and not the real tough nitty-gritty stuff.  (No specific church or group being discussed here, so no finger-pointing going on here by me 😋)


 In the times we live in, I think it is so important for us to get real about our faith.  Its not about denominations, its not about how you or I interpret this verse or that.  Its about unity.  Its about standing together as one for God.  They say that the Christian army is the only army that shoots its own soldiers.  Ain't that the truth.  We serve the same God.  And His word even instructs us not to get caught up in legalese and conspiracies.

So, on my journey to digging deeper I am adding to my reading lists books by those men of God who have dug deeper before me.  No more surface scratching for me.  Dig deeper or go home Tracy!

What books or courses or other resources are you using to dig deeper?

God bless
Tracy

Monday, 6 March 2017

Like Elijah - You Too Can Pray

Right now our country, South Africa, is going through a make or break stage.  The ruling party is losing favour and their years and years of corruption is being exposed and people are saying enough is enough.  They are at that stage where they need to up their game before the next elections in 2019.  However, how will they do that?  Through ethical and people focused means?  Or through continued skulduggery?  Sadly, I think it will be the latter.

I love my country.  It is getting to a critical point where weekly murders of farmers in the norm and the press hide it in the back pages somewhere.  Nothing is being done about these things.  Hatred and renewed violence and racism (the normal kind and the reversed kind) is growing exponentially.


Those that can leave the country, do!  Those that can't, stay!  And then there are those, like us, who choose to stay. We love our country.  We love the people.  We KNOW that we can all live in harmony.  We can overcome hate and hurt.  We know, and choose to believe that God has a good plan for us in this country.  But its really hard when it seems evil is winning....

On top of that, our province is having the worst drought in something like 100 yrs.  They say we have 2 months water left and then we are done!  Water is becoming another point over which to fight and debate and hate.  Instead of solutions being sought!

And so back to the purpose of this post....

I was having a quiet time and wondering if I can find out if there are any prayer groups out there, praying for our country, and praying for rain.  I asked around, I wondered if maybe I should start something, and ask anyone to join me in praying for our country, and the rain we so desperately need.

And then I read this:  James 5 vs 17-18:  (17)  Elijah was a man with nature like ours, and he prayed earnestly that it would not rain;  and it did not rain on the land for three years and six months.  (18) And he prayed again, and the heaven gave rain, and the earth produced its fruit.

It was a light bulb moment for me.  Elijah was just a normal person like you and I.  He was no more "special" or different.  He had the faith to pray earnestly and believed.  I felt like the Lord was telling me, "you too can pray for rain, and trust Me for it, extend your faith, go for it and pray, earnestly!"  I don't need to join any prayer group.  Although if I find one I will because I do believe that where two or more are gathered in Jesus' name, there He is in the midst of us (Matt 18v20).   But I don't need to wait for people to get together!  I can pray, right here, right now!

In my bible after the end of James 5, there is a large open space.  I wrote down my prayer for rain for our province.  I believe that God WILL fill our dams and He WILL do it before the water comes to an end.


I do believe that we as Christians are called to come together and seek God's forgiveness, humble ourselves and pray, and He will come heal our land, with water, and with good governance.  God's word says so.  If His word says so, then so it is!  2 Chron 7 v 14:  If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

Would you mind, if South Africa comes to mind, that you would lift us up in prayer?  Would you pray for the violence to end, for the corruption to be exposed and to come to an end and for righteous people in power to stand up and make a stand for Godly ways and Godly principles.  Thank you friends.

God bless
Tracy

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